Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Philippians 2:3
How have I become so prideful? It must have happened little by little because I never thought about it. When did the world start to revolve around me? When did I start to think that people should do things the way I like them? When did I start to consider myself so socially busy that friends have to pursue me?
It really sickens me to think about my thoughts and actions the past week or so. Selfishness, for me, results in worry and stress. And it affects all areas. If only 3 girls show up on Wednesday night, then it’s my fault, which it’s really not. When I think that way, I leave out the possibility that those girls need individual attention, which they do. I don’t want to talk to strangers because of how they will view me, forget about God. It’s all about my image.
SICK. I wish I could spiritually vomit right now. God, ever faithful, has provided a time for me tomorrow morning so that I can practice complete humility, complete joy in serving others, and complete abandonment of myself. I’ll let you know what i learn from this humility boot camp.